I said “I miss my dad” on Father’s Day, Rose sitting with me at Mama’s in Oakland having our late breakfast. She was almost seven.

“He is always with you,” she said.

Sitting in my apartment in San Francisco in Bernal Heights feeling the fallout from a breakup. My father was sober for a long time and I was sober for about two years until the summer of 1989. I was living in a small apartment in Kent, Ohio, I was struggling, this was the summer of the big earthquake in San Francisco. I had a big black and white…


The Present Moment

Is being in the present moment enlightenment, or does it lead to enlightenment, if you’ve done the work, study, meditation? To be aware that this is it, this moment, that is all there is. Sitting here on the couch, typing while my daughter does her homework. Of course to be aware also that this is a privilege, to be in a safe place, free of sickness, war, all the comforts of privilege. …


My daughter is nine, she just pulled up some crazy good jazz to listen to while she works on her morning writing journal before class. One of the benefits of remote learning — she also wants to be able to listen to her own garageband compositions while she writes. This is what happens when you love kids and encourage music, art, writing. I have been exposing her to classical and rock and punk music but I think her teacher got her more into jazz.

I write these days in quiet or listening to ocean sounds. I used to like the…


sitting in the Peets I came to the day my father died, remembering that day.

I was spending a few hours in the sfmoma, When I bought a twombly book…


my substack

free for now…a new way to communicate…new to me…

https://charleskeatts.substack.com


better, or easier, than yesterday. Yesterday was rough. Today my daughter is back, now she is playing roblox with her bff online. I’m listening to new order, it’s james klein’s and yoko ono’s birthdays! looking at her instagram, really glad I did. So much focus on peace, she never will let go of that. and if only everyone had that focus.

I worked a lot today, at my sales thing. drove around, doing stuff, got a mocha at peets and food from baja. worked on my website and blog a bit. a very productive day, a little sore from running…


mcdonalds in paradise

she was young. so was I, just less young. she was 19 or so.

She worked at a McDonalds in Nice or nearby, how did I meet her?

I was there with Simon, I was escaping myself, for a while.

and she took me up the hill on the back of her scooter and later that day

Simon and I hitchhiked to Cannes and drank a lot of Tequila.

we hitchhiked back, I picked up cigarette butts by the road.

a nice couple drove us back to Villeneuve-Loubet and I wandered all over

the estate looking for…


a story or novel which is a continuation of the castle. K. arrives in the castle which is a place similar to the time space in interstellar, also the library…


Some books and thoughts about books, other things…

Intense day at work, now chilling with friends on zoom. My daughter is reading, almost time for bed. I can work on my memoir or read, just so tired.

Feel like reading Shelley, philosophy. I was looking through the New Yorker, reading about Berryman.

I wrote some poems recenrly. Don’t want to freak out tonight…it’s been a long day, long days. Feeling sad… but good things are happening. I know I’ll sleep well tonight…probably. I want to read Broch again. Death of Virgil and the Mandarins (Beauvoir) were two of my favorite…


new memoir/novel…a few pages…

working on the memoir is slow. slow going. feels good to clean it up, edit, take away, chip away at it. not adding to it. it’s a lot of work.

here is what I have so far: I mean, I have about 440 pages but this is the cleanest…

troubled sleep, a memoir

or novel? still not sure…

The way upward and the way downward
is one and the same.

- Herakleitos

“What on earth prompted you to take a hand in this?” “I don’t know. My… my code of morals, perhaps.” “Your code of morals…

Charles Keatts

Essays, poetry, and prose. Published novelist, working on memoir/ novel, art, and other things.

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