watching the matrix

the movie, again, realizing that not only was my second novel influenced by the film but also was a prequel in some ways. Amazing. How A.I. was developed and in my case used by a few people to wipe out the human population with a new ice age. And the ensuing VR world that my characters built, and lived in. Not exact but pretty cool to see how I did that unconsciously.

Went to see Terry Riley, John Zorn, and Laurie Anderson tonight at The Chapel with Mike and friends. Amazing when they were all three in sync especially the louder symphonic sections, and Laurie and Riley were awesome in their solo sections or focused times. Great see see Laurie for maybe the fourth time since 87 or so, Home of the Brave tour. The Chapel is great and as usual these days I am the only one moving with the music, dancing in place.

Being in the Mission, my old neighborhood from over 9 or 10 years ago now…sadness is the feeling. The feeling of what I was then, my stuggles with depression, and my new life and struggles and that gap in between. It’s painful like a rip or tear in my person, this sadness of who I was then and wishing I could have been happier, suffered less. But also the fun easy innocence of being single, no kid, not working as hard as I do now.

I don’t care about the shops on Valencia…many have not changed in ten or fifteen years and many are new. Mission St. is a wasteland of boarded and damaged buildings. For me it’s personal, how I am now and those five plus years in SF that I wish I could go back and fix.

Essays, poetry, and prose. Published novelist, working on memoir/ novel, art, and other things.

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